what do you know

feel like throwing up, saying fuck this shit fuck you all just fuck it's 1:29am i want to sleep but i have an outline to write
fuck shit fuck

you know,
you really did ruin a lot of things for me. It's probably not your fault but it's what's happened nonetheless. I've lost dignity, integrity and now I lie complete lies with a straight face and play dumb. A defense mechanism, that's all. You could've reaped the benefits. Instead you were too preoccupied. Do you think I'm a fool? A fucking hopeless fool? So much potential initially, strange, what the hell is she thinking, what a shame... is that what you think, shrugging it off nodding as everyone nods in a mutual agreement? I'll tell you what, you all are too quick to judge. What's wrong with being a vegan, what's wrong with a bit of tastelessness that doesn't jive perfectly with your self-absorbed preferences? Piss off man, now I'm lost and I need to find my way back. In a few weeks, I'll burn some shit.

And all I want to do is listen to Radiohead. That's all. And study. Get good grades. Blow off all my money on concerts and music festivals. Read, read a lot and sip a lot of tea. I'll go where I want to when I want to, fuck off. Yeah I'm being a selfish little bitch. I'm sorry but still though...fuck off.